The Forbidden had Awaken fanart [wip gif]

Yeah, I wanted to give tribute to the original artist that made this drawing. I had seen it a very long time ago while watching a clip show amv for The Birthday Massacre - Blue. This was one of the pictures used in that video, and ever since, I loved the hell out of her.

It was probably 11 years ago that I saw that, and it was only around the time I began to decide to draw this that I finally looked up the original artist. It wasn’t that easy for me to find or trust the search results, because there were a few alters and the deviantart account didn’t have the most high res version I’ve seen so I wasn’t sure about that one. But it turns out it was the right guy or gal, it took a comment on Twitter to tell me.

It seemed like only one person actually knew about this original drawing before, but what was weird was that they mistook me for the original guy.... I guess because in my tribute I played close to the original art style, but that was awkward as fuck. I was worried that I might get shit for redrawing something that wasn’t mine, but that’s what “fan art” is sooo. Plus, I saw someone do a redraw of a different goth anime girl, and everyone joined in and the original artist thanked everyone for the tributes.

So I thought I could the same thing with a different girl I like. So I draw the girl carefully for a few days, try to find the original guy’s account, couldn’t find it so I hope for the best so it’s seen as good will, post it, get mistaken for the guy once, no one else really cared about it or knew who she was. So yeah, I did not at all get the same results as I was hoping I would, wasn’t as fun of a response. It got fronpaged on NG, but you know.

That’s a shit show right there, I put a lot of emotional context in it and expected something exciting and explosive, because this looks really good. I used a lot of new techniques to complete this and gained more respect for the original artist, but apparently didn’t translate to the other 16k people following me, at the time. Just to rant a bit more, I feel like that’s been happening a lot more lately, I exhaust way too much effort but no one really connects with it. Sometimes feels like I actually only have 100 followers. Sounds bratty, but it is immediately isolating.

Ironically, that feeling helped a lot in making this drawing come out the way it did. So I guess I should be too upset, I absolutely love this drawing and I’m glad I did it after all these years. I always wanted to draw her, but I wanted to wait until I was good enough to match that level of skill.

Originally completed on Feb. 12, 2020

Originally made BY this guy https://www.deviantart.com/chopstickmadness/art/Lynn-37452756