This Week At KosoruCG 6/04-6/10

cool....I really like using Momo as the cover

emm...actually I should use Lala but I haven't finished remaking Lala yet...

maybe I should go and finish this remake

Hello GG welcome to weekly report!

a lot happened last week

very very busy

and went to see an old friend I will tell this story later

I have a hunch that this weekly report will be long

I suggest you find a drink first

let's start with the important stuff

(lest I forget what I'm talking about again)

uh...i started using google services

so you don't have to spend so much time waiting for the download

everyone's time is precious

another thing is

I found out my twitter is not used by anyone

maybe also because I don't use twitter very much

most of the time I just use it to look at some... other people's works

anyway, I made a folder with google

It contains some old videos

https://drive.google.com/drive/u/1/folders/1bFIidA5bMPsqEcN-i_WN3E4XgKeFCU0b

You can use this link

I know that many links on my FANBOX have expired

Thank you MEGA:)

if I have time, I will change the old link of FANBOX

but that's not the first thing I'm dealing with right now

uh...possibly sorry for new followers

If I have time I will update that link I promise

then let's talk about requests

I remember I mentioned this a little bit in the last weekly report

at the time I was busy making...Request...

Some people may wonder why its title is Request

didn't use my usual style to title the story

because the main story development is not planned by me

the requester proposes what he would like to see

and I try to make all of these things appear in the video as far as reasonably possible

So I think I'm no't going to make a title for any request

it's not i don't like this video

i won't make any videos i don't like

It's just that it will be different from the story I designed

so the naming will be different

oh and if you're anyone who wants to order videos

I expect to schedule all requests until July or later

I really want to make the video I planned before

I think the last request was a video of me checking out my work

how much i learned

so like i said

The total production time for that video was more than 80 hours

no matter the cost

I just want to see something really cool

okay what am i going to do now

Of course, make those videos that are planned to be done

Because when I make any series

The reason it didn't have a sequel is because

"I don't think there's any way a sequel to this video could be better than the previous one"

now i think i'm ready

so they will be completed

if you ask me which one will come out first

I think it will be Rat 2 because it has done most of it

The next one will probably be lucky day 4

or stalker 7

and I want to put partner 8 in my schedule

but i guess that one will be in july

anyway

Let's put the rest of the stuff behind

then do some sequels:)

i think i'm ready:)

after Yoruichi's video

okay all the important things have been said

(at least at this moment I don't think of anything else)

Let me tell you about what happened before I started doing Request last week

at the time I accepted the request but hadn't started production yet

I went to the restaurant for dinner with my middle school classmates

We haven't seen each other since we graduated from school.

We went our separate ways

But we usually send messages every one or two years

every time i tell him

oh you're still alive

because he's drinking a lot and always getting drunk

I think he might drown in vomit one day

he told me it every time I talk to me I'm doing something different

do baking, be a Chinese food chef, be a restaurant supervisor

do that do that

and now is a guy doing Hentai video

I've been drawing anime girls with and without since middle school

maybe nude maybe half naked

and he told me then I was wasting my talent he blamed my behavior

he thinks I should go make movies or be a screenwriter and do great stuff

instead of drawing hentai comics

now that I think about it, it seems like it was decided in middle school

I mentioned in my message that I'm making a bunch of hentai videos right now

I asked him what he thinks about this

i thought he would accuse me

but he told me he didn't care

and he said he knew I was testing his reaction

so he repeated it again

he doesn't care

he told me he changed

no longer using his morality and justice to accuse anyone of his choices like he did ten years ago

everyone should choose a way of life

I made an appointment with him in front of the station

even if I haven't seen him in ten years

he can recognize me from far away too

he said I don't look changed at all

even though i think i've changed a lot

When we were at the restaurant I asked him what he was doing

he told me it was the same as when I was in middle school

he still wants to be a screenwriter

and he's on the road

he knows exactly how he can achieve this goal

he has been skipping classes since middle school

three years add up to 1095 days

he only has about 60 days in attendance

and as far as i know he didn't go to high school

he just watches movies at home every day

at that time, both teachers and other students felt that he would be a waste in the future.

including me

my country takes what is written in school books as a big deal

we judge the value of a young man by his grades in school

every day for the 60 days he was around I was at school discussing what movies he watched

I doubt he's seen every movie on earth

I got a job two days after I graduated high school

I thought these things would make me grow

Become a more reliable and useful person

when i worked for four years

when i was 22

i know he hasn't done any work yet

he just stays home and does what he wants

his family allowed him to do it too

i am proud of myself

did not become him

I consider myself a responsible adult

then two years later

it's 2022

close right?

he told me about the war on the other side of the world

About the U.S. Army About the World

then i know nothing

He asked me why I became so ignorant

i just answer

everyone will change

I spend most of my time at my job

Getting off work is the only thing I care about every day

when i said this to him

I don't doubt that this thing is wrong

because i'm used to it

I think people are supposed to do that

the environment changed me

when he told me what happened in the world

I can't stop complaining to him about my life

Suddenly he told me:

"i think you've become an idiot"

"and i don't really want to talk to you right now"

a real friend, right?

Only your real friends will tell you you're wrong

even that may lose friendship

that's when i started thinking

i thought i was a successful person

a responsible person

Because I entered the workplace very early

"What have I got after six years?"

i didn't save money

I don't know where my salary went over the past six years

i didn't get rich

didn't become a better person

I actually think I'm ignorant and negative

i don't know what should i do

then don't know why

i started to envy him

he already knew that he was going to be a screenwriter in the future

so he might actually watched all movies in the world

to study these things he likes

I thought that after graduating from junior high school, I kept moving forward

he stays put

I was wrong

I found out that I was the one who stopped where I was

I go in and out of school every day like me in middle school

but don't know who I am

I was so depressed that night last year

i feel like i have nothing

but I think something changed in my heart from that day on

but i didn't know what it was then

I'm starting to feel like what I've been chasing is wrong

not what i want

we were in the restaurant that night talking about what we've done in ten years

how did we get here

I talk to him about how I make the video

I told him I keep trying new plugins or different ways to make videos

I want every video to have a new breakthrough

sometimes I use some weird ways to present

I show my other friends my videos

some of them will tell me:

"why are you doing this here?"

"I don't think this part is necessary at all"

"have you seen how other people do animation?"

It makes me think if I'm wrong

When I was researching animations from other creators, I noticed that sometimes

everybody don't do that

but i don't know why

Is it because it's bad?

Or is it time-consuming and inefficient?

Or because...?

I told him I would be worried if the content I made was wrong

because no one ever did before like this

I think there are many people better than me

am I supposed to learn from them?

he heard me say that

he across the table

left hand holding the wine glass and the right hand is pointing at me

he told me:

"You....my friend...

That's why there are new things in the world

If everyone did things the same way before

do what others did before

using previous recipes and methods that have been found...

there will be nothing new in the world"

"You shouldn't do it anyone's way

there shouldn't be any recipe

following the recipe is Coca-Cola doing thing"

he gave me a lot of confidence

because he looks so sure

before i knew it he'd had thirteen maybe fourteen glasses of red wine

i only have two drinks

because i don't like the feeling of being drunk

even if he says he pays for the meal

It's approaching restaurant closing time

only the two of us here

I can see the waiter starting to put the surrounding chairs on the table

start cleaning

I told him we should go

he told me they don't rest until 10

It's only 9:30. what's the hurry?

I can tell he's a little bit drunk

he walked over to the soda machine to get some coke

but the drink machine has been turned off

the waiter told him the drink machine is not open now

as a former restaurant supervisor, I know

it's absolutely against the rules

You shouldn't cancel any guest's rights before the real closing time

But there probably is no one in charge

and I have no intention of protesting this matter

The looks from the waiters around me make me uncomfortable

Wait for him to come back to his seat with an empty drink glass

I told him at about 30% volume:

"we should go"

he said to me excitedly with a volume of about 300%:

"I love the job I choose and you love the job you choose

so why don't they like the jobs they choose?"

Then immediately told me in a normal voice that he was going to pee

I think maybe the whole restaurant is watching us

but i don't care

because i'm stuck in thinking:

"Does everyone really choose their job?

Was it my choice to do baking when I started?

Or is it just because there is a bakery nearby?

Did I really make a choice?"

Do people really know what choice is?

Do people know what they want?"

at school your teachers and your parents will tell you:

"you have to be a good student

grades are the only thing you have to strive for"

but when people leave school and home

who's going to tell them what they're supposed to be

what else should you target?

the other day a friend told me

he's poor and he needs money or he can't do anything

he needs more money to do what he wants to do

he wants to find a job with longer hours

get more money so he can buy more of what he wants

He is telling me:

"dude i need money

I need more money or I can't do anything

I need more money or there is no way I can get out"

So I asked him:

"so what do you want to do"

he told me he needed a job that paid more

maybe it will be harder but he will have more money

to do what he wants

So I asked him again:

"then if you have money

what do you want"

he told me it would save him from working

I told him:

"I don't think what you need right now is more money

not more work either

Instead you need to stop

think about what you really want"

I don't know if he understands what I mean

I don't think it sounds reasonable to work more just to stay away from work

But until last year I was doing the same thing

I told him what you need now is not money

what you need is to stop

and think about what you want

I used to play games with my friends after work every day

that's the only thing I want to do every day

recently my friends often want to play games with me

but I always tell them I don't have time

they know I spend maybe 16 hours a day making videos

they tell me I'm getting more tired than before

I said no

It's not money that makes me do this

it's because i want to

after my friends told me I was an idiot

I was thinking about it that night

what do i want

don't need to worry about money and don't need to work is the purpose of life?

i mentioned the officer i met in the army

38 years old about to retire

he doesn't need to work anymore

but all I see on his face is regret

as my friend said

I love my work

I'm doing this stuff doing my favorite videos

I'm willing to spend all my time making it better and more proficient

I don't think it's easy to know who you are

I thought as long as I found a job to increase my income

getting a better position is proof that I'm moving on

thought I'd get what I wanted if I just kept going

I thought I was more successful than my friend

turns out it was six years later that I was the one who stayed where I was

strange to say

If I were to go back and ask myself back then:

"Do you know what you're doing?"

I'm sure he will answer me "he knows exactly what he's doing"

when i think about these things

I came to my senses and realized that it's been 20 minutes

and he hasn't come back

just when I was wondering if he fell into the toilet, he came back

he thanked the waiter before we left

but i didn't say anything

because I'm still thinking about these things

I often say that I wish everyone to be who they want to be.

But now that I think about it, it may not be easy to know who you are

Maybe I should add before this sentence

"I hope everyone can find themselves"

here is my story

how about yours

I don't think everyone has the same goal

it is a custom made

a thing only for you

one only for you

you need to find what you love

then let these things help you

when you think you can't take it anymore

you want to give up

these things will save you

let you move on

Hope everyone can be who they want to be

before I knew it, I had been writing this weekly report for three hours

I honestly don't think it has anything to do with my videomaking

but i want to do

so i'll still do it

i think i'll keep making videos forever

Started making videos on November 15 last year

It's been half a year now

Watching the video I made the day before yesterday

what i'm thinking is:

"wow don't know what my video will look like in half a year"

emm...maybe I will do something special on November 15th this year

commemorate the first anniversary

but I think those things should be put on the back burner

Too many videos to do

and too little time

to be honest, I wrote so much that I doubt that anyone will read all these things

But I started off with the important things first

so i think it should be ok

oh...one more thing

I'm still figuring out how to try and make any votes

Considering that FANBOX does not have this function

that really suck（´・ω・｀）

i can't accept every request

and....in fact custom videos are expensive

but I also want people to have a way to see their favorite characters appear

I'm still figuring this out

If you have any good ideas, you can also suggest me

i always read

that's all

thank you for watching the weekly

although I doubt anyone can actually read this all

Let's keep making hentai videos tomorrow too!!