Two Things (you gave me a horny book)

Video up in a few days about the Camp Grant Massacre and the Spanish legacy of enslavement & raiding in the "wild west".

Also, I got a bunch of recommendations to read "My Confession" by Samuel Chamberlain. I'm 50 pages in, and I want to make a 30 minute video on Samuel's THING with women. Have YOU read it? He's got something going on, a Madonna-Whore Complex, possibly. The amount of lusty young women, their virtue intact, who go frothing at the gams for this guy is ridiculous. He does discuss, briefly, some partying with women of the evening. I guess the core question is: did he actually have this effect on women? Certainly, some men do!

But...this guy? How can one prove, conclusively, that a man fucked. He makes himself out to be quite the strapping young man. The reality that this is being penned while the man is married and old does not escape me. I have spent, already, several hours thinking about the sex life of a dead man, whether he actually had one at all

Why am I fixating on this?

NO ONE FUCKS in primary sources. Not the person WRITING IT, anyway. There is certainly intercourse being had, between the lines, but no one is having romantic entanglements during the Fall of the Aztec. Geronimo spoke of his wife and kids, but not even the notorious braggart Cremony spent 50 pages talking about all the girls who THREW themselves at him but who he REFUSED. Cremony didn't fuck at all, he was too busy being a man of science. Cremony absolutely did not cum. No way he had a son. That man did not fuck.

Samuel also cries only a few chapters in, after nearly killing his own uncle with an axe. In general he manages to project a sensitivity and strength which the hoes do love indeed. He is very compelling, I want to like him, he is so sensitive and strong.

Maybe he did get all that pussy, but the question is (and the question women often have to ask is):

Is Samuel actually this strong, sensitive, and honest? Or is he just trying to fuck?

God, I wish Cremony was this horny. That would have been hilarious. Maybe he was, between the lines, but let's hope not. I take it back. If Cremony was horny, he would have gotten his own chapter in "Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee". Steve here! And Larson!

Just some brief thoughts, I am VERY happy to say this current video is proceeding as it should. Not very funny, perhaps too dark, but concise (by my standards) which was the goal. The next few videos after this are going to be messy and vulnerable, consequently I needed to prove to myself I could still stay on-topic. I worry now that I am just trying to convince everyone how strong and sensitive I am. It is, to be honest, just the type of man people want to like.

Also, recording outside will continue. Next video will be filmed at the Llano Estacado.