JANUARY SCHEDULE

Happy New Year everyone!

I hope every one of you were able to enjoy your holiday season. As we enter into the deep winter season, make sure to be weary of the weather, stay warm and don't get sick. And I hope this new year is a better year for you than the last.

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Let's talk about the schedule

So December was a bit of a slow month in terms of comebacks so there's not many listening parties which is why I'm coupling some random variety stuff with it!

I've finished moving out of my old office so I won't have any more days that takes me away from filming too much. I'll be using this time to both film content for this month as well as filming ahead for next month! So this is the last the month with sort of a weird schedule with these award shows and next month we'll be back with regularly scheduled variety.

As for next month... Well, I can't GUARANTEE or promise it, but I am looking towards I-LAND 2 to replace Road to Kingdom Ace of Ace as well as ENHYPEN's WALK THE LINE Concert.

I can't guarantee they'll be out next month because I did not have these in my bingo cards of things I was going to film.

The biggest obstacle with these were frankly time, and putting my health as a priority this year. I gotta lose like 80 more pounds in order to be at my ideal weight. There's no more taking it slow, it's a pressing issue.

So I might compromise and I've been building a "treadmill" setup that I'm planning on using for extremely long shows like I-LAND 2 or Concerts. If this works, I may bring concerts back! I'm looking at SHINee and TWICE's concerts for the coming months as well!

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Reflecting and moving forward

I'm excited about the year going forward. Last year was the toughest moment of my life. This exact time last year I was all bout ready to give up on everything. I was so burnt out, I wasn't taking care of myself (mentally, physically, or emotionally) and I was definitely spiraling. It was no one's fault but my own. I failed my partner, I failed you all, but most importantly I failed myself.

Reflecting back now, I'm very proud of my progress. I endured more hardships in the following months but thanks to my therapist and my coach, and my own ability to face dark truths about myself, I had a year of exponential learning, growth, and healing. I've been told the progress I've made takes many people months and even years to get to. They say it's because I hold myself to an extremely high standard, for better or for worse. And I'm currently learning to balance that.

And I couldn't have done it without you all! Your support, and the numerous messages I've received, some even sharing their own personal intimate stories of struggle, or even how I have played a role in their lives and their own profound happiness and meanings was an instrumental part in helping me find meaning in life and my purpose again. So thank you for your patience, thank you for your support!

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Going forward this year...

Well, if any of you guys tuned in to my livestream some odd weeks ago, you'll know that I've been learning music theory and the keyboard! I'm hoping to further improve my proficiency in that area and move into experimenting with musical programs to start making my own beats.

I'm also being realistic about my expectations. With the amount that I film and work I put into my channel and this Patreon, I know I can't rush my projects anymore. So I'm hoping to at least have a finished script for my next film project: 'I Only Love In The Summer'. I've been writing it on and off the past 2024 and have been working through most of Act 1. This is going to be the run time of either a long film or a multi episodic mini-series so it's going to take a while.

I'm going to take my time with my personal passion projects and in the mean time tend to the garden that is my channel and pour my love into it. Since my ARTMS project (the LOOSSEMBLE video is a bit in limbo) I have felt greatly inspired to do a big project for a K-Pop group.

There's possibly something with a group I'm very passionate about but there's nothing on the books yet but I'll dig a little deeper into this on the podcast.

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Long post. I'll wrap it up here! I just had a lot on my mind and in my heart I wanted to share with everyone, and express my gratitude. I took a lot, frankly, everything in my life for granted because I was in so much pain. I've since been able to reverse that, and take value of everything in my life to heal my pain.

Thank you everyone. It's not lost on me that I am where I am without each and every one of you. Even the people who aren't on my Patreon! I'm so grateful that some people believe in me when I believed so little in myself.

No more.

I hope you all find the courage and strength to move forward in your lives with your dreams, passions, and goals like I have. Have a wonderful day and have a great new year!