Im dyeingng

Honestly I thought summer break would make me happy and I felt like I needed this but I’ve never felt so overwhelmed and lost in a while like this. Nothing is going as planned and it feels like there’s so much against me currently. Im trying so hard and every time I make a good decision that’ll help better my health and well being there’s something throwing me back down. I try my best to ignore it and persist but it keeps going and it really sucks. I feel really lost and I’m not sure what to do aside from keep going so that’s what I will do but it’s rlly hard when all you feel is just so lost and confused. It’s so odd because it’s not JUST lost and confused it’s violent to the point where I’m vomiting and it SUCKS.

Anyways thwres the rant for the day lol. There’s just so many issues currently like I feel so much pressure right now from it being financially secure even though I don’t even have a job?? Like how can people expect me to be reeling in racks when I don’t even got a job LMAO

And my family is putting so much pressure on me. I just want to have a safe space right now and It feels like that is no where. Not even on the bike on the road because I almost got murdered 4 times on the way to the gym and from. I DONT KNOWWWWWW AAAAAAAA I’m dying